Well hello! It’s been well over a year since I’ve written a single word on my blog.
I could site the usual excuses: Life is SO busy!, My three uber-successful and brilliantly-parented kids take up all my free time; I’m a super accomplished full-time writer now; I was tied up making homemade organic almond milk and fermented nut cheese; and my husband and I were busy planning romantic getaways to reaffirm our perfect love.
But I won’t bore you with the details. Sufficed to say, aside from the rigours of keeping myself afloat, the truth is that I simply got sick of my own writing.
I recently re-read the “About Me” page on my blog and seriously had to stifle a gag. My proudest accomplishment is getting my three kids to drink their green smoothies. Barf! How smug is this Lori Leigh Wilson character? And you people followed me…..what were you thinking?!
Ok, so if you’ll give me another chance then I’d like to start anew. Thanks to Jaclyn Desforge and her wonderful Nest & Story writing workshop, I feel reinvigorated and inspired – and I’ve decided that I want to use this space for truth telling, story sharing and vulnerability.
“I don’t even want to know someone who isn’t barely hanging on by a thread.” – Amy Schumer, The Girl With The Lower Back Tattoo
So let’s get this party started! Here’s the real authentic me as of today: First of all, I’ve totally lost my mojo for cooking. To be honest, my association with the “whole food” movement began to make me feel uncomfortable and preachy. And it probably works both ways since I’ve added frozen veggie meatballs and taco kits into my weekly meal rotation.
My youngest child had a wicked bout of separation anxiety at back-to-school time that pretty much brought me to my knees. I think I might have cried more than he did and I’m pretty sure it took four years off my life.
My daughter is in full blown puberty which means mood swings from hell, and my oldest son frequently responds to my brilliant pearls of wisdom with the words “the cringe is real.”
My husband and I mostly sleep separately because the 6-year-old stealthily inserts himself into our bed. And although I love my husband – I think we both secretly like the arrangement. I get to snuggle with my little buddy and he gets to watch Netflix on his phone without me badgering him to turn it off because it’s bad for his eyesight.
I deeply enjoy junky reality tv (Kardashians included). Most days I write in my pyjamas until I have to finally face the public when I pick up my kids from school. We have mice in our kitchen. I’ve turned worrying into an Olympic sport (I’m going for the gold!). My kids fight. My jeans are tight (perhaps because I’m eating Halloween candy by the fistful). My dogs bark a LOT….and the littlest one poops on the floor at least a couple of times every week just to keep me on my toes.
On a more somber note, there have been two shocking deaths in my family that have really shaken the ground beneath my feet. A vibrant adolescent boy was gone in an instant, and a loving and feisty grandmother took her last breath after a painful health struggle. Sometimes the brutal randomness of life makes me want to grab my family and hide in a cave ..you know what I mean?
What about any good stuff you ask? Well, after my worry reached a scary peak, I signed up for a mediation class and I’m learning to breathe and find space between what happens and how I respond. It’s amazing and I’ll talk more about it in another post.
I’ve read some incredible books including Lindy West’s life-changing memoir Shrill and Glennon Doyle-Melton’s raw and brave biography Love Warrior. I can honestly say that they fundamentally changed the way I look at myself, others and the world. I mean it – read those damn books!!
And I’ve been writing my butt off, actually pulling in a paycheque and contributing to our family finances in a meaningful way for the first time in many years. That feels good.
Phew! There I said it. And I’ll keep on saying it if you’ll be so kind as to indulge me. And I promise no more smug posts or crappy recipes – unless you want me to guide you through the process of thawing and heating some mouth-watering veggie meatballs…..: )
Thanks for your support and I’d love to hear from you. How are things going in your life? Feel free to comment below.
P.S. I am working on rejigging my site so please bear with me as I make some changes.
12 thoughts on “There I Said It”
Great to see a new post from you Lori! Love how raw and honest it is. And for the record, I didn’t think your recipes were crappy (although I have to admit I’ve lost a lot of my cooking mojo lately too) 🙂
THanks Mel! Ok maybe some of the recipes were ok : ) Maybe we should do a cooking class together???
you are great. I appreciate your authenticity. lovingly yours, mark
Well done Lori!! I smiled the whole way through :O)
I look forward to the next posts!
Thanks Lis! I know you’ve always got my back : )
Lori, this post made me laugh so hard and I LOVE this new outlook. Your honesty is so refreshing and for that I say “thank you”. The evolution of “you” is so inspiring and I can’t wait to see more!
Welcome back girl!
Thanks Lis! So good to hear from you! I’ll do my best to keep it real ; )
Loved every word of it! Can’t wait for your next one! I feel the keeping it real idea is amazing, cause we all need to know we are not alone in this crazy life. A great quote to share ” what screws us up most in life is the picture in our head of how it is suppose to be”
you go girlfriend. xo
Lori Wilson….so glad you are back. I missed your insightful commentary and real life drama. As you put into words what I am thinking I can’t help but breathe a sigh of relief knowing I am not alone. Teenage drama, check. Tight jeans, check. Unhealthy mid week rush like a bad outta hell family dinners, check. Loving, living and making the most of everyday, check! Xo Lori, you make me smile. Check.
Thanks for your kind words Krista! It’s great knowing we are all going through the same things eh?
Loved reading this! Well written and I can feel your new outlook in your words.
Thanks Beth – and nice to hear from you!